So yesterday I drove with my best friend adriana to pick up the newest member of my family "Dax"

He settled in very nicely and napped with my all morning. It was a girls day this sunday. Adiana came over and Marie and selena shortly followed. I had a facial done and my nails done as well. We then had pizza from this awesome pizza place by my house. 

 happy sunday. 

shitty toilet.

Enjoi.

I just want to say one thing.

This one this is very simple, yet also very important to remember.

You will never know until you try.

My ex and I broke up a month ago. I still have feelings for him, but I don't know why? He was not a good boyfriend at all the last month that we dated. He seems so genuine now but I'm scared to believe him and get hurt again. Advice? 

Okay. So I am going to go ahead and say DON'T BELIEVE HIM.

But thats easier said then done. So what I am also going to say is, if this is his first offense, forgive him because even though I  believe assholes don't deserve you, I also know that the human mind wants us to believe that there is good in every one, and that everyone can change. ONLY GIVE HIM ONE CHANCE. This is purely to see if it is worth it or not and to let you know that they aren't in fact going to change but you were nice enough to give them the benefit of the doubt. I do hope it works out... Sorry to be such a pessimist about the subject

Will you take pictures of my head?

- It seems like not a lot of people know about this, so I am going to take the initiative and go ahead and explain it to you dumb fucks... 

If you are on the high way and are driving in the left lane, you are officially in the fast lane. Which means you need to be going faster if not keeping a good enough speed to move with traffic. If you see someone coming up close behind you, you are officially not going fast enough to stay in the fast lane. It is proper courtesy to move into the nearest lane to let the person behind you pass, as you are not going fast enough for them. Do not just sit there like an idiot waiting for them to pass you, you are no longer going with traffic, you are now too slow for someone else who clearly has to be somewhere soon. 

- My father always told me "Think Emily, Think before you speak" and although I slip up sometimes, I still always try to see if I can find the answer to a question with out having to ask. I can't fucking stand it when someone asks me a question they can clearly answer themselves. 

- On another note, you'd be surprised how many questions I answer with a "yes" with out actually knowing the answer to the question.

- I hear a lot of people tell me "You always get what you want" but they always say it in a condescending way. I don't find this to be such a bad thing being that I work hard at getting everything I want. 

- Not a big fan of people who brag about their work. You may be good at what you do bro, but you're still a dick to me. 

- I get that there will always be haters. There will always be people that are jealous of you or just don't have anything nice to say. What I don't get are why some of these are people are people I actually call friends. Next time skip the hater-aid bitches. 

- If he is blurting out that he has a 10 inch cock, he doesn't in fact have a 10 inch cock. 

- Here is how you know you are or are dating a psycho bitch:

1. You check his cell phone when ever he's not looking. Trying to be a sneak about it but you know once you find something questionable you will have to punch him in the dick. EVEN THOUGH YOU WENT LOOKING FOR IT! 

2. If you are more then 3 feet away from him and you are trying to use your peripherals to see what the code/password to his laptop/cellphone is.... 

3. You butt in conversations he is having with anyone especially someone of the opposite sex.. 

4. You get mad/jealous that he has girlfriends that live on the other side of the earth. In other words there is no way in hell he could ever fuck her because she is 10000000000 miles away yet you are still mad/jealous about it...

5. You comment at least once a day on any of his networking sites.

6. Texting back more then twice when he hasn't texted you back. 

7. Adding his friends on the interwebz when you have never met them in real life.

8. You google his name once a day.

9. You see ANY girl as a threat.

- I admire people that take the initiative to start a conversation with a complete stranger.

- Or.... OR! you could just burn your bridges... 

- A gift, no matter how small, is still a gift.

- Which is more un-work friendly? 

1. texting while at work

2. writing while at work

- I am getting REAL tired of Lady Gaga's effort on trying to be different. As a matter of fact part of me wishes she would try and be normal now that everyones trying to be like her. I don't think dressing like a mermaid and singing in a wheel chair is going to make me think all of a sudden you are interesting... 

This is infinitely more interesting then lady gaga. 

- I wish I could focus more on my hobbies but the reason I don't is because I have a real steady job that pays 90% of my bills. Also because I'm not stupid. 

A ginger asked me to take a look at his band.

Trust me I'm a liar

And well you know how much I love ginger bears and pop music. 

- I hate kiosks. No I don't want my eye brows waxed or a new cell phone plan. Fuck off you annoying piece of shit.. 

-relevant- 

- Someone said something to me and it made perfect sense.... A good mattress is something you want to spend extra on because in this instance quantity = quality. 

Would you hold that against me?

I woke up this morning and was staring out of my window. I just had this weird feeling how quickly life moves on from death. Another morning, everyone in the same routine.

My neighbor passed away yesterday. I didn't know the man very well but I knew his son. Death slows everything down. You take in things you normally wouldn't even notice. Maybe its just our minds preparing for the last time. Life doesn't even give you the time to say goodbye, or even give you the right amount of time to cherish a moment. In the morning, life has moved on to the next.

I wonder what is going on at there house, If they are alright? or if they are all together, hurtled in a room. I prayed for them last night which is something I don't do very often, and I did it more then once. I think I fell asleep to doing it.

Dad always told me "When I die, don't cry" and I always reply with "that's real easy for you to say, you'll be dead" He wont have to feel sorrow or pain. He wont be left with the burdens of missing someone.

I remember when I was a kid, probably about 3 or 4 I would get tucked into bed and my dad would leave the night light on and walk to his room. Then my brain started to work, I started to think of my parents being here one day and gone the next and I would start crying hysterically. Dad would rush in and I would explain to him why I was crying. He would tell me "I'm young! I wont die for a really long time" I would stare at him wondering "How do you know? You could die tomorrow and you would never even know I would miss you"

Maybe life moves so quick so the healing comes a lot faster. So we can get to tomorrow to be with the ones we love. Everyone always say "live today like its your last" but no one ever really does it. I think the more important thing is to let people know that you love them, and miss them because you don't know what life has in store for you or them.

I know the first part of this entry was very melancholy so here are some pictures of Nicole from yesterday.

Coming up...

I had to post these.

Swoosh hair

Okay I love this kid, he's so out going.